but when I'm alone no one hears me cry ..
Then someone tells me how good I look and for a moment .. for a moment I am happy
I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful the day I chose not to eat what I do know is how I changed my life forever I know I should know better 17 , fat , hate my body, bulimic , depressive , but after all I'm a nice girl, I guess, I love music I can sing play guitars and piano , love to dance , but my eating disorders let me to another world where all I can do is thing about lose weight and how I'm fat ..so welcome to my little hell. * I'm still working on it ! I'm doing some links yet sorry for it , gonna put here soon ! * * I'm not pro ana mia or self-harm , I'm here just to put my feelings *
DisorderYour Score
Major Depression:High
Dysthymia:Very High
Bipolar Disorder:Very Slight
Cyclothymia:Moderate
Seasonal Affective Disorder:Extremely High
Postpartum Depression:N/A
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I don’t support eat anymore I’m hating myself more than ever tonight I need to cut now I’m very anxious with a lot of hate arghhhhh please kill me ! I deserve to be fat I deserve to be horrible .. I can’t even write now , wanna sleep forever bye

I don’t support eat anymore I’m hating myself more than ever tonight I need to cut now I’m very anxious with a lot of hate arghhhhh please kill me ! I deserve to be fat I deserve to be horrible .. I can’t even write now , wanna sleep forever bye



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